A true story: worth the read:
A time when All I did was say YES!
It was a Tuesday morning and I was sitting at my desk doing my usual “busy work”, break time, I popped open Facebook and the most incredible photo of Mother Nature that I've ever seen appeared before me. I clicked on the link which lead me to an invitation to the Xanadu Life….whats that?
Well the definition of Xanadu is “an idealized place of magnificent beauty” and this photo was definitely what I'd imagine when connected to the word magnificent! I knew in my gut I was ready to step away from my life which at the time felt very empty, toxic & unfulfilling, but I had NO IDEA what was about to happen. I've traveled to over 40 countries & this was the first journey I was about to embark on “truly alone”.
Full of FEAR… ugh, Step one, bought my ticket. A journey alongside 30 complete strangers, my gut telling me YES, my brain telling me “WTF” are you thinking?….
Step two, packed my bags. Time to arrange the 8 hour road trip to get the Grand Canyon. I thought, well, I can do the easy comfortable thing, drive solo, or I can really commit to stepping out of my comfort zone & car pool with complete strangers… “go big or go home” right? So I joined two strangers Melissa & Bogdan for the drive from LA to AZ (newly dating then, married now)!
The first night all 30 of us (this is where I met Heidi & Ryan, founders of The Xanadu Life) this is when I realized many in the group already new each other, friends and couples......we joined in a potluck dinner. We sat on the edge of one of the 7 wonders of the World to witness an incredible sun set over the epic Grand Canyon. Later we laid under the vast expansion of stars above, utterly breathtaking, surrounded by extraordinary people & yet somehow, someway I felt so alone, I felt I didn't belong here. Later, I silently cried in my tent, "what was i thinking" with a prayer that I’d feel better in the morning.
Waking before the sun, new day, a new mindset, my mantra, “I can & I will” …. I was determined to “get out of my own way” to break these negative thoughts, patterns & habits I'd been carrying on around pretty much all of my life. And although I really didn't understand “how” I was going to do it, I knew “why”. I knew in my heart I had a higher purpose in this world and I knew all I needed to do was START, I knew the time was NOW.
And so the beginning of my transformation began….the 12 mile hike into the canyon was filled with beautiful moments of getting to know my camp mates mixed with some alone time to take it all in. We spent the next 5 days nestled between two ginormous sunburnt orange rocks. We hiked to breath taking views along the Colorado, we jumped off cliffs, we chiseled “gold” from the pitch black mines, WE conquered fears. We swam, bathed, floated in the bluest of water I'd ever scene, and our nights were spent nestled in the arms of Mother Earth beneath the stars filled with thoughtful conversations, cuddle puddles, arts & crafts & dance parties.
WOW !!!!! I was free, free in my own skin. To be ME, no mask, no past bullshit, just ME- Silly, Dorkable, LOVABLE ME :)
My life is forever changed because I said YES! Yes, despite my fears. Yes, despite my anxiety. Yes, despite all the negative thoughts swarming in my head.
Since then I have joined on almost all of Xanadu's adventures
I've witnessed my own personal growth (now an Integrative Wellness & Life Coach) along with the growth of many who “stood in my fear filled shoes” and said YES.
This is my testimonial to my first Xanadu adventure, whether it's Catalina, Havasupai or any other Xanadu adventure, they are all the perfect blend of personal growth & an super fun time which has lead me to where I am today, a connection to this community of so many truly priceless experiences!
And now I am super stoked to be leading a Self Re-Set “R-series” play shop where I can share tools to guide you to "get out of your own way" during our Catalina adventure Sept. 29- oct. 1st
Say YES to an experience that will transform you simply by showing up!